Day 25

I've let myself be discouraged the last couple days, but I'm back. I never abandoned my diet, but I had a couple moments of, 'Why bother?'

Why? Because I am proud that I have started and stuck to a diet for so long. Because if I don't stick to it, I won't know if I would have seen results next month. I've already seen benefits, like my skin clearing up some, and my sleep patterns getting better. Maybe because it took a while for me to get where I am, and it might take me a while to get that extra weight gone.

Confession: this is the first time I've ever dieted. When I was younger, all it took was to quit drinking every day off, and quit eating junk food. Now, I haven't eaten junk food regularly for years, so cutting it out completely doesn't make much difference. Now, I'm drinking at least 2 litres of water every day, in addition to all the tea and coffee I drink.I work in a job that has me on my feet and moving for 8 hours a day, with occasional burst of weight lifting, like re-arranging a couple of pallets of cased pop by hand a couple of times a month. I'm slowly adding body weight exercises to my daily routine, and I've started reading a book called 'The Slow Burn Revolution'. Slowly, I'll learn every at-home exercise, then I'll start to build a curcuit, then I'll be flying.

Also, This month, I'll try to cut down on on my weigh-ins. I've been weighing myself every morning at the same time, under the same conditions, and getting nothing but frustrated. I started at 170lbs, bounced around as low as 165, then two days ago I was 170, again. I actually cried. There's no reason for me to feel that way when weight is not the best way to show results, so I've weighed myself today, and from here on out, I'm only weighing myself on Saturdays, aka every 7th day of this endeavor. This is all just a big experiment to find what works best for me to get myself to the best thealth that I can, physically and mentally.

Any body out there struggling with motivation? Sometimes, like this time, all it takes is pushing forward, but sometimes it takes a lot more. Have you ever had to take our heart in your hand and just attack?